Coping strategies
As I approach the first anniversay of my solo life I’ve begun to think about the future. Until now it’s been living day to day. Just get through it until I can go back to bed. How did I get here?How I have coped? How am I going to continue? Do I need to change my approach?
People react to loss and grief in different ways. Now that it’s entered my existence what have I learnt about myself?
Regular readers will know I exercise to keep fit and for mental stabilty. It’s become even more central to my survival. I think it may have become an obsession. It’s why I get up in the morning, and to be honest, maybe the reason I eat regularly.
I don’t want my posts to become maudlin or self-indulgent and certainly not depressiong to read. Many posts get written and deleted for this reason.
They help me by focusing my thoughts, and I hope they assist readers.
This time of year has always presented a challenge; the weather impinges on riding and running. The winter period now has more reason to impact my motivation. It would be very easy not to get up in the morning. I appreciate how others in my situation do just that for long periods. The company I work for continue to be very supportive. And to a point would give me some space. But it necessarily would be limited. I haven’t buried any struggles in this outlet, I know some do.
Energy exertion is now my crutch. I get up in the morning to eat so that I have the energy needed to complete my goals. Food; for me is just fuel. I do enjoy cooking, or do I strive to keep in interesting enough so that I consume calories?
If injury meant I had to stop would I put a plate on the table as often, and by extension, would I bother to get up in the morning?
I think I’m healthy so I guess I must be getting it right. On a physical level at least. I have started to question the mental fitness this way of life might induce. Is it healthy? I’ll answer that by saying it works for me. So don’t worry dear reader.
Will it work for you? I don’t know. The cliche for coping with huge life changes is obsessing about one part of your life. Work is the standard for film, TV and books. Is that better than what I use?
So many questions to end this post.
I need to get ready now to head out on the bike.
