The Wonder of You - You Make Me Feel Brand New
The lyrics to these Elvis and Stylistics songs neatly sum up my life with Marcia. If you are not familiar with the words please search for and listen to the tracks.
You Make Me Feel Brand New was playing when the two pictures below were taken at our wedding - it was our first dance.
I think about Marcia everyday, and am very thankful to have had her in my life. No matter what she had to cope with she still let me have so much freedom. The cycling trips I did were great ways for me to unwind, even though they were sometimes hard going. We both knew they did me good. Having a break from me, I hope, helped her in the same way.
Marcia rarely complained or had “why me” moments.
She was an incredible woman.
My first priority was her, and I her’s. We did so much together, but as the MS progressed it became harder for her to participate. I wanted her to be as involved as possible and to do as much as she could manage. To this day I worry I didn’t do enough to enhance her days. Could I have done more? I think I could.
It could be a cliched thing to say, carpe diem. But I think it’s still a thought that makes sense.
I worried that the MS would get worse and about how we’d cope. But I never thought she’d no longer be with me. Stupid I know. I just can’t get past this. It’s always at the back of my mind.